What is holding you down?

We all have things that hold us down.  We all have reasons to be bitter, to hate, to withhold forgiveness, to dwell in the past, to spew negativity.

But, does that mean we should?  Not even close.

Not one of us can say that we’ve had an easy life.  In fact, the hardest parts are what help shape who we are.  But, the shape we take is up to us.  Each one of us has a choice to make at every fork in the road.  Will we go the right way?  Will we let the situation that brought us to the fork take us down or make us fight?  There was a time that I let having diabetes get the best of me.  I resented that I had to do things just to get through a day that others didn’t have to do.  I hated that I had to wear something on my body every second of every day just to survive.  I was bitter, and I was negative.  And, that was my choice.  I chose to live in bitterness and I chose to be negative.  If you think these things are feelings and not choices, think again.  When I was tired of being bitter, I made a choice and that choice changed who I was, how I was going to handle my disease, and how I was going to live my life.  Was it easy, no.  Not even a little bit.  I certainly didn’t wake up one day and say, “I’m free, I’m happy, and I want the world to know it.”  That’s not how it works.  It’s slow, it’s painful, it’s hard and it’s oh so rewarding!

Hard and rewarding.  That’s how anything worth fighting for should be.  Don’t you think everyone would fight if it were easy?  We’re all fighting demons that others may not see and we all have things we wish we could change if we could.  For the things I cannot change, I pray to God that I can accept those and that others can too, but it is my choice to change or not change the things that are in my power.  For the things we hold onto, for the people we think we are holding in chains by not forgiving, I’m sorry to tell you that if you tug hard enough, you will realize you are the one whose hands are bound.  You are holding yourself hostage from a life well deserved and you are forgetting the forgiveness that has so graciously been given to you by God.  Imagine if God didn’t forgive you because He just didn’t feel like it. He’d be pretty lonely up there if He made the same decisions that we make when we choose not to let go. Listen, I know it’s not easy to take all of our burdens and simply decide to be done with them.  It takes effort every single day, sometimes hour by hour, and it takes time.  It takes patience.  It takes faith.  Most importantly, it takes a sincere desire to want to change.

Warning: cliche about to happen.  If I can do it, anyone can.  That’s no joke folks.  I was a seriously broken person.  I just simply didn’t want to be that anymore.  I still have bad days.  I still get sad for no reason.  The difference is now I don’t let myself linger there.  I have the power to say, “Not today, pal.”

So what is holding you down? Who do you need to forgive to break the chains around your heart? Whatever or whoever it is, make a decision.  Will you let it continue to hold you down, or will you set yourself free? Only you can decide.

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